I’m stuck.
Like, REALLY stuck.
SO stuck that I can’t move forward.
I feel like I am just slipping backwards.
With no brakes.
How the F*@* did I get HERE again!?
Little “bad” habits are turning into BIG pieces of my life.
I can feel myself retreating into my own mind.
Walls being built.
Lies breaking free.
My heart growing a little colder and harder.
RETREAT, my mind is screaming.
Find a safe place.
Hide.
Living in the shadows of unworthiness.
Only “good” girls get to eat.
I am not a “good” girl.
I am bad, bad, bad!
“You’re not trying hard enough!”
ANA is screaming.
LOUD.
LOUDER.
I tried drowning her.
But She came back
And She is PISSED.
She didn’t like being silenced.
She wants revenge.
She likes to see ME stuck.
Stuck with nowhere to go.
S.T.U.C.K.
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