HOPE…..

Needing this today.

A LOT of it.

Do YOU?

Let’s find some,

FAST.

Depression is REAL,

My Friends.

VERY real.

A little TOO real.

Blech.

I HATE it when I have days like this….

Nothing I do,

Or anyone else for that matter,

Remotely helps the melancholy that settles in….

Threatening to NOT leave.

Ever.

That’s what it feels like.

NO lie.

It’s ON those days,

That I honestly DON’T want to get out of bed.

Shower.

Eat.

Take my meds.

Talk.

Smile.

Function.

Live.

I literally become one giant….

Slug.

Captivated by Netflix,

Binge watching EVERY episode of what’s-the-what.

Engrossed with the charm of OTHER people’s lives.

Ok, Drama…..

Whatever!

And it usually leads to ME feeling worse.

Seriously.

LOL.

The joke’s on ME!

It always IS….

I’m just typically the LAST one to KNOW.

So,

Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho,

It’s BACK to bed I go!

Swallowing down an extra little cocktail of Anxiety pills,

I pull the cover’s over my head….

And silence the crazy nonsense,

I call my Brain.

At least for a FEW moments!?!

Sleep,

Is pretty much MY new….

“Coping” Skill.

Yup,

I’ve been enjoying it quite immensely.

I don’t have to do ANYTHING.

Except,

Invite the allure of slumber.

BECAUSE,

As MOST of you probably KNOW…..

YOU, too, suffer from the SAME Hell!

My mind does NOT want to shut off.

EVERY little thing I need to DO tomorrow,

EVERY little thing I said or did WRONG today-

Trust me when I say,

EVERY little piece of my LIFE gets micro-scrutinized.

Under my OWN damning Microscope.

It pretty much sucks….

Until the Anxiety drugs kick in.

THEN,

And ONLY then,

Is there complete silence….

Of the Heart,

Soul,

Mind,

AND

Mouth!

😏😶😘