I HATE MYSELF!

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I’m pissed.

AF.

I’ve been SO good!?!

Last night,

Was the beginning to an end.

Or so I thought.

I wanted to prove to my Husband that I could eat more than just a slice or two of Pizza.

I ate 3 pieces,

And felt SO full that I had to literally MAKE my Husband not leave the room.

I was afraid IF he did, I’d run to the bathroom and get rid of it.

Which I DID.

AFTER, curling into a teny-tiny ball on my couch….

Forcing myself to ride the storm.

It was a Hurricane.

I cried,

I begged my Husband to please, NOT leave the room…..

And I THOUGHT I’d gotten thru the worst of it.

Until, I was faced with my OWN silence.

And my OWN choices…..

And I chose wrong.

Story OF my life!

WHY do I NEVER learn!?

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Published by Michele Perry

Hi! Thanks for taking the time to read my Blog! It may be painful, and relateable, but more than anything, my HOPE is that you will LAUGH with me, because this journey isn't easy! TRYING to see the humor is what I HAVE to do...because just like you, it gives me the opportunity to feel like a "normal" person...even IF it's short lived! I have suffered from an Eating Disorder for over 30+ years, and recently went to Treatment due to an intense and debilitating Relapse, for the very first time. I'm just trying to find my way....šŸ’—šŸ’”šŸ’—

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