FRUSTRATION (S)

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This.

After walking OUT of Treatment the other day,

I feel like I self-sabotoged myself.

In fact,

I KNOW that I did.

Because I couldn’t stay clean.

Being sober for Group IS a requirement.

I have NO self control.

At ALL.

Especially when Group is so late in the day.

4:30pm.

Uhhhh, HALF the day is already gone!?!

And so,

I wait.

To see if there is a different Program that I can start.

Soon!

STILL waiting to hear back.

Until then…..

I am extremely sad.

Sad that I can’t pull myself together.

Angry that I can’t seem to get things RIGHT.

Discouraged that I messed things up.

AGAIN.

I seriously feel like a Failure.

A. BIG. FAT. FAILURE.

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Published by Michele Perry

Hi! Thanks for taking the time to read my Blog! It may be painful, and relateable, but more than anything, my HOPE is that you will LAUGH with me, because this journey isn't easy! TRYING to see the humor is what I HAVE to do...because just like you, it gives me the opportunity to feel like a "normal" person...even IF it's short lived! I have suffered from an Eating Disorder for over 30+ years, and recently went to Treatment due to an intense and debilitating Relapse, for the very first time. I'm just trying to find my way....💗💔💗

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  1. You aren’t a failure. You’re struggling. Reach out to God. Over and over and over. Reach out to your friends for support. You have lots of people who love you. There are people who understand. You don’t have to be alone in this. 😘

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