While I was in treatment and when I left, being on a meal plan was a huge thing.
I followed my meal plan for probably two or three weeks before I stopped, and started doing “Intuitive” eating.
I started incorporating a lot of foods that were very fearful for me, but I also felt very liberated to kind of eat whatever and whenever I wanted.
I ate Donuts, Cake, Pancakes, French Fries, Etc.
Eating became a social experience, rather than the latter..
And I blossomed.
I felt better, and I looked better!
I gave myself permission to enjoy food again.
It is now been a year since I left treatment, and this is where I feel like creating AND following a Meal Plan DOES come into a huge play.
STAYING in Recovery, and NOT backsliding into old Eating Disorder behaviors is important to me.
Extremely important!
I feel like I can actually execute AND achieve eating 3 solid Meals, and 3 Snacks.
In Treatment, I literally laughed hysterically, and maybe a little angrily, in Group one day when the Staff recommended and also EXPECTED us to eat that much.
My stomach could BARELY handle re-feeding AT Inpatient.
Residential was BETTER, but when I left, I STILL didn’t feel the need to eat that much food in 1 day!?!
NOW, as I am completely weight restored, I feel the importance of eating on a regular basis, as to not relapse.
To make SURE I’m getting a GOOD quality of Nutrients.
After a while, the party ends, of eating all the fun foods that I missed out on when my Eating Disorder disorder was prominent.
I certainly do not want to set myself up for becoming a binge eater, because I could definitely easily swing that way!
I’ve always told my friends laughingly, that there IS a delicious fat woman inside of me, just BEGGING to be let out!
Would it really be that big of a deal if I unleashed her?
Probably NOT.
My Health may suffer a bit, but there are far more important things to worry about, right?
Besides, MY Recovery is more important!
Shelly's Recovery 