A TRAUMA THERAPY EXPERIENCE

noun

“A person regarded as having access to, and influence in, the world of good and evil spirits, especially among some peoples of northern Asia and North America. Typically such people enter a trance state during a ritual, and practice divination and healing.”

Wild, right?

I’m NOT one to typically dabble in stuff like this, but I WAS intrigued.

Typical Trauma “Therapy” has NOT worked for me.

I can’t seem to bring myself to talk about it, much less try to go back and describe the emotional and physical aspect of the Sexual Abuse I endured as a pre-teen.

I was with a friend who I completely trust, and am completely comfortable around, which I think helped put me at ease.

D // M // T is something I researched before taking, and also again after.

I quite a few DIFFERENT experiences when taking it, but one in particular was EXTREMELY healing for me.

I can’t quite put into words the profoundness of my “trip”, BUT,

Not only was I was immersed in the pain of the Abuse,

I was actually able to see the Beauty in it!?

But MOST of all, I was able to understand and take away the wisdom of freedom.

Crazy, right!?

My Friend was right there with me, along with the Shaman, guiding me to grasp the concept of healing and enlightment.

I am, and WAS, affected in a way I can NOT totally understand.

Except to say that it was a grateful ending to the torment I’ve been living with on a daily basis.

Would I recommend it?

Yes and no.

I feel that for Trauma healing, it IS something Therapists SHOULD use, but I also understand that it is NOT for the weak….

It is a very vivid and intense journey, that I’m not sure just anyone could handle.

I say that, because I did it more than once, and not every experience was pleasant.

On the Spiritual side, I DID feel that I was being told that I was dabbling in something I shouldn’t be….

That I was walking an extremely fine line of darkness and light.

Good and Evil.

I felt that I was being comforted by a blanket of protection, which I can only explain as an Angel.

It was with me, and by my side, the entire time.

On the flip side, it left me with a feeling of frustration because I wasn’t able to tap into MORE healing.

It DID allow me to understand that God controls EVERY aspect of my being.

That I need to choose HIM, over anything that I think is a human assumption.

We as people, have the ability to CHOOSE what we DO,

But God ultimately has the POWER to control whether we live or die.

That part is interesting, because of the fact that a lot of people that DO use D // M // T, say that they feel like they have a near-death experience, and it gives you the opportunity to cross over…

My Friend did NOT have the same experience as I did.

He felt that he was being Spiritually ATTACKED, and I whole heartedly believe that he WAS.

I literally felt that in the moment, I needed to lay my hands on him and pray.

For his safety and his protection.

Did I?

No.

Why?

Because when I suggested it, I could tell that he was extremely uncomfortable with the idea.

I regret not using God’s Authority to ease the fear and anguish I saw on his face, and deep within his eyes.

It scared me to see that.

I can honestly say that he and I both believe that he was being tormented by Demons.

It also allowed me to feel extremely empathetic towards him.

Almost peaceful, because I could see with extreme clarity, that he was and IS, truly suffering.

I will be praying that he will not only be protected, but will hopefully realize and understand,

That he has the ability to choose the path of Grace and Redemption-

That only Jesus can offer.